That is how I feel today.
But let me elaborate. It really has not been my day or night.
It started this afternoon at work. During lunch, my computer randomly crashed twice and told me that the video card was failing. It made work difficult when each restart took more than 20 minutes to boot up.
Then, I was almost hit by a car on my way to dance. Thankfully almost. I was coming out of my driveway on my scooter and there is a large white panel van that parks on the side of the road just next to our driveway. The issue is that the way the road is built, and because it has no windows, the van completely blocks the view to the right. To compensate, you have to look down past all the cars that are parked (about 500 m) to the bottom of the hill and then keep track of the cars you see coming until there is a break.
The issue is that there is an intersection and other driveways you can’t see. So even though it might look clear all the way down the hill, cars could turn on to the road without you seeing them. That’s what happened tonight. I was slowly peeking out around the van and discovered a car coming right for me. So I ended up braking hard, losing my balance and falling over, landing mostly on my scooter. Missed the car (which stopped and asked if I was all right), and thankfully didn’t hit anything hard. Cracked the windshield of my scooter in two though when it hit the pavement. I was able to get it upright and started again, and assessed that I had bruised my shins and had a small scrape on one leg. Mostly I was shaken up.
Following that, I got to dance. I had received some unexpected news about what to expect for my recovery from surgery yesterday and that has possible repercussions for dance–particularly competing in the fall. Long story short, it could be 12 weeks after my surgery before I will be able to dance, particularly for any length of time without pain and pulling. It’s quite different from the 6 weeks I was initially told to expect. That required a bit of a conversation with Boss, but pretty much at this point I haven’t really gotten to a place where I can completely process this and start to adjust my goals. Again.
The conversation itself wasn’t bad, it was just a disappointing one to have to have. That said, I still have my silver test this weekend and work to prepare, so it was another lesson dedicated to rounds and running through the routines. We started with latin tonight, which didn’t go too bad, although jive is still a bit questionable for endurance. Following that, we moved to standard. That was going pretty well…
Until I caught my heel on the cuff of my pants during the quickstep and fell over backwards hitting my left hand and hip pretty far. Also ripped the hem of my pants. That actually hurt more than falling on my scooter. Go figure.
In general, I was ok, just bruised. Had to work out my left ankle a little bit, but after rolling up my pants we were able to continue with the lesson and get through the Quickstep. We followed that with Viennese Waltz. We did a full minute of that, but I was really dying after 45 seconds. We ended with a section of foxtrot I was blanking on a bit to review it, but by the second run through of that I could tell I was pretty done.
One comment Boss made tonight and my last lesson is that he is finding my endurance is improving, and the most significant thing is that when I get tired I am better able to compensate instead of just completely sinking and collapsing. It’s good to hear because compared to where I was before I got sick and had treatments I would say I am about half where I was–especially in VW, QS, and Jive. Cha Cha can also be questionable sometimes.
What’s a little disheartening about that is after up to 12 weeks off to recover from surgery, I am going to have to start over on a lot of things–rebuilding endurance being one of them. I have been there before though and my focus right now is to try and build as good a base as I can so hopefully there will still be some when I am ready to come back.
I really hope the falls tonight won’t result in me waking up broken tomorrow. I also wrenched my shoulder trying to open a door (seriously–how does that happen??), burned my hand on coffee and spilled it in my scooter case. All signs I should have just call it a night. I didn’t though, I stayed for practice and was able to run through all my routines on my own except paso. I had a long epsom salt bath after so hopefully that will head off some of the bruising coming my way.
As far as the test, I still feel pretty good about it aside from the endurance issues. I have most of the routines down and that is helping my confidence. Fingers crossed my body holds out till then.
I discussed with Boss tonight the idea of filming the routines during the test. It will be up to the adjudicator, but I am hoping we will be able to. It’s been almost 6 months since we recorded anything, and at least according to Boss there has been a lot of changes. I toyed with the idea of filming them before the test, but I don’t want things I may see in the videos to distract from the test, or to kill my confidence. While probably things will look better than I expect, I don’t want to risk that they might possibly look worse. Better to keep going the direction I am going at this point, and evaluate later.
After the test, I have 4 weeks until surgery. Mainly, I want to get all the gold routines laid out and if possible filmed so I have them to refer to while I recover. One of the things I want to have a look at (and should be able to) is to figure out the styling for latin and put together some ideas where needed.
In all honesty, I think that is the main part missing from the silver latin routines, but I am trying not to let myself worry about that.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.