This is the thing that concerns me most about my dancing right now.
Unfortunately, doing anything about it right now doesn’t make a lot of sense as I will be off a minimum of 6 weeks after surgery.
Its been an issue since chemo, and it really hasn’t recovered (not sure it has really had time). One of the most frustrating things about it is that I tend to go from 85% to 5% over one step. And once it is gone, there is no recovering I like a pile of jelly and no strength of will pulls it back together.
We were doing some rounds during my lesson on Friday to prepare for my test on June 11th. Basically, its pretty obvious that VW and QS will not be very good, foxtrot will be iffy, and jive will be pretty questionable. I am pretty much resigned to the fact that my endurance is just going to be the biggest issue.
Compounding the endurance issue, I had my injection Friday and it seems to have caused some strong unwanted side effects (at least I think its the injection…). As is my usual habit on Saturday, I went to the gym to do strength training. Unfortunately, 10 mins into my cardio routine my legs turned to jelly and I could barely make them move. I had to stop and head home, where I barely made it up the stairs my legs felt so weak.
Muscle weakness is not an uncommon side effect but that seemed just extreme and very disappointing. I am hoping it is mainly just a bit of shock by my body from the injection itself and it will adjust. I am tired today, but so far not feeling ‘weak’.
The trickiest thing about this side effect is that it is really hard to gauge and not very consistent. Its limiting on my life in general and there seems to be nothing to do about it.
I am getting hit with this just as Boss announced he is adding a standard technique class which I would like to participate in, but I feel my health is going to make it impossible. Its on Monday nights, so I would have (in theory) strength training during the day, then practice, a lesson, and a class all in a row. I’ve done it before, but not recently. It doesn’t start for a couple weeks, so really I will just have to see how I feel closer to it.
7 weeks until my surgery. Once again I feel like I am going to have to more or less completely reset and start over on recovering from everything when I finally get clearance to get back on the floor.
Not for the first time, I find myself wondering if I will ever fully recover and be able to work full time and do a minimum of dancing to allow me to progress and compete. It does seem a bit like an impossible task right now, but I am trying to remain optimistic that this next surgery will truly be the start of a return to ‘normal’ for me.
Speaking of my surgery, I had an idea for a dance project to do while I am laid up and recovering. There is a showcase piece to a waltz I did as my first showcase. At the time, the steps were very basic and simple, but I would like to redo it now I can dance better. So I proposed to Boss that I work on coming up with choreography for that showcase. Not sure how it will work, but at least it will give me something dance related to work on.
7 weeks seems a long time right now.