This will probably be the first post of a few as I work through all the usual post comp processes.
First, I was successful in achieving my goal of getting through all my dances. It was close though. I was coughing so hard after my solo I considered scratching the 5-dance. Thankfully, with a lot of water, cough drops, decongestants and ibuprofen my lungs settled down and I was able to do the full scholarship without coughing, completing my goal.
My solo was hands down the high point of the day. I felt good and relaxed going into it and it just clicked together. It was one of those moments where the audience disappears and I was able to just enjoy the moment and performance. Really strong comments from almost all the judges, and many people from the audience came up to me after to say how much they enjoyed it. My shining moment from the competition. I posted the video on the Breast Cancer Ballroom Dancer facebook page if you would like to see it.
Next to the solo, it was probably the 5-dance scholarship that went the best. Whether it was because I felt no pressure, or I was just determined to get it done, things seemed to click together a little bit for it. That’s not to say it wasn’t hard. I messed up the quickstep pretty good and almost tripped Boss, but I pulled it back together and was able to finish strong.
I got all of the routines on the floor . They weren’t without mishaps, and watching the videos they are obviously new routines that still need some of the bugs worked out. But what was good was that we were able to sort through and figure out what spots we should look at adjusting going forward, because they just don’t quite seem to work the way they were expected to.There is lots to work on before my next competition.
My placings were not great. I was last in all of my contested heats except one. It’s a little strange because while I didn’t expect to do well, I didn’t expect to be last either. It’s been more than a year since I last competed and so much has changed, so I guess I really didn’t know what to expect, especially with new routines in a fairly new level for me (open silver). I am trying not to focus on it too much, but I do have to acknowledge to myself that I am disappointed with how I placed, but mostly because I am also disappointed with how I looked while dancing.
I know that I was giving my all and trying to pull everything together but I was finding myself a little distracted and unfocused. I am sure the illness contributed to everything but in the end I felt heavy and slow. When I see the videos, I see that reflected. There is just some ‘oomph’ missing that I usually see in my dancing, and my dancing lacked the polish I usually like to bring to the floor.
I am also having a hard time reconciling how my body looks now. If I had to choose a word, I would say ‘square’. For whatever reason, I have lost a lot of the curviness I used to have before my surgery. My waist just seems to be lacking definition, so from my ribs to my hips I am almost the same size. I am trying not to let it bother me, but clearly it does. I only hope that as I lose more weight, things will distribute better and my curves will come back.
One thing I can definitely say is that this competition has given me the bit of the kick in the behind I have been needing. I have been struggling to find some really strong motivation lately to keep me focused and zoned in. Placing as I did at this competition and seeing the videos of my dancing seems to have done that. I have a better idea of what I would like to see and do with my dancing for now, and that is probably the best thing about any competition.
I want to focus in on silver and open silver for a while, and I want to plan to do a large competition later next year to sort of finish it out. Not sure if that completely ‘jives’ with what Boss is thinking, but I guess I will see. He and I are going to sit down and go over things next week before I head overseas for work.
That is really my next project. I leave on Thursday for 10 days overseas for work. I am going somewhere I have never been before and I am nervous and excited at the same time. I have 2 days to get everything together, but it also means a bit of an imposed break from dance. I am thinking at this point a bit of a break and time for reflection might be a good thing.
Stamina and conditioning are two words I know will be centre of focus over the next little while. Not just for dance, but in general. I feel heavy and slow in all that I do and I am getting tired of it. My stamina is affecting my ability to really do all I want to do and I want to work past it. I keep reaching a ledge right now where I go from ‘ok’ to ‘limp noodle’ like a flip of a switch. Part of it is still recovering from all my treatments (2 years is what the doctors say I should expect to struggle with fatigue, etc.), but part of it is so much time spent being unable to work at the level I was. I see lots of hard work on cardio and endurance in the future.
Well, I will have to put this cold to be now. I have an interview with The Dancing Housewife tomorrow, so I want to be on the ball for that.
I am sure I will have more to say in the next few days 🙂
Thank you all for your support as I prepared to get back on the floor for this competition! I don’t usually post photos to the blog, but I will make an exception this time and roll back the curtain. This is a photo of Boss and I being ‘very serious’ after the standard scholarship. Love my new dresses from Spirals Designs!