That was my milestone for yesterday.
It’s been a really crazy year, but it’s done. It’s uphill from here. I was told it takes up to 2 years to fully recover from my treatments, so I guess I am officially halfway there.
No, I didn’t get everything done I had hoped to in the last year, but as life kept putting more and more obstacles in my way, I just kept adjusting. The road to your goals is never a straight line, but full of unexpected twists and turns.
Yesterday turned out to be an unexpectedly busy day. I received news that once all the paperwork comes through I will be returning to my previous position managing the public relations for the local base and will be working for my old Boss again–at least temporarily until he gets sent to a new position later this year.
I don’t know when the paperwork will come through yet, but ‘any day now’ seems to be the main line I get when I ask what to expect. I have mixed feelings about returning to a position I have previously done, but I am doing so based on a request specifically for me, and it keeps me in the same location. It is a job I really enjoyed and I will be overseeing some major transitions in staffing and infrastructure that will certainly keep me busy.
It will be a good place for me to finish healing, and does represent the faith that the senior leadership has in my abilities and that is not something to be taken lightly.
One of the other things I was able to do yesterday was run through and record 3 of the open smooth routines with Boss! We are sending the videos to the pro who originally choreographed the routines for some general feedback and to see if there are spots she thinks should be adjusted. It’s great to have gotten the routines to that point where we can run them without stopping even though they are still pretty rough.
My plan for later tonight is to go through the videos and make some notes for myself on styling. I am glad to actually have reached a point where I find myself thinking about styling more than the steps.
We are going to run the routines tomorrow during the competitive practice to give us an idea of the alignments and spacing in a bigger hall. I am looking forward to that as I think it’s going to be very interesting.
The other decision I have made recently is to work with a friend of mine on styling in general for smooth and latin. She is a hip hop teacher as well as a coach at a local dance studio that specializes in empowering women through dance (in styles like jazz, modern, burlesque, chair, etc.). I think the work will be good to help with my confidence. One of the themes I see a lot in my dancing lately, and especially in my styling is ‘small’. So I need to work on developing (or redeveloping) my confidence to ‘go big or go home’, something my dancing needs a lot of.
I don’t want to jinx myself, but I seem to be turning the corner on the hormones. I haven’t had a headache for 2 days or been nauseous. My head cleared yesterday, I feel more calm, more energetic and I am sleeping better. 4 more days till I see the specialist.
My first year cancer-free has been a challenge, but I expected it to be (although perhaps not quite such a big one!).
I want to take a moment though to acknowledge that there is no way I would have been able to get through the past year so strongly without the incredible support I have from friends and family. There are too many to name and I especially wouldn’t want to leave any out, but I hope they all know who they are and how much there support has made a difference for me.
I am looking forward to what I hope will be an easier 2nd year cancer-free.