When Boss and I clash, we tend to clash hard. But when we get past the clash, it’s pretty interesting what comes out of it.
Last night Boss and I sat down to discuss mainly the future for competing. It was a very productive conversation.
We discussed the value and merit of doing the local competition in January. It’s a difficult call as there are advantages and disadvantages to doing it and in the end it comes down to what do I want to focus on now as far as routines. If I do the competition in January, then it is an opportunity to solidify more the open routines and add the jive and paso routines I don’t yet have. It is also an opportunity to put the open smooth routines on the floor. I know I won’t be competing for a while after January, so it would be the last short-term opportunity to do so.
If I didn’t do the competition in January, then it would make more sense to put the open routines aside and begin working on closed gold routines (which is the plan after the comp in January). As the open routines are not the most solid at the moment, putting them aside now would likely mean having to pick them up from scratch at a later time. Considering the work I have already done on them, I am reluctant to do that.
So, after going through all the pros and cons and options, Boss and I agreed that doing the competition in January would be a good opportunity and an advantage. I will be doing only open routines, and I will compete in 3 styles.
That means a lot of work needs to happen in smooth over the next few weeks. We have 4 routines to put together and we have only worked on one once since I returned from overseas. Boss will be adjusting the plan of my lessons over the next little while to give more focus on smooth and help bring them together.
Somewhere in the middle of the conversation I seem to have agreed to perform one of the smooth routines in just over 2 weeks. Not really sure how that happened–I think I was tricked somehow 🙂 . I don’t know which routine yet, but Boss suggested the simplest one. All we have to do now is figure out which one that is. I had a look at the videos of them last night and actually suggested the waltz. I don’t think it’s the simplest to put together (I think foxtrot is), but I think it works better with the season and focusing on it will make it a very strong start to smooth multi-dances. I will see what Boss thinks about that.
We discussed a few changes for my latin routines as I had made some small suggestions over the weekend. Boss seems to like them, so we will see how they will go.
He also surprised me by making some suggestions for ways we could focus a little bit on fitness and general conditioning for dance at the end of lessons. After the conversation we had last week, I really didn’t expect any sort of suggestion or further discussion on this, but I guess Boss took some time to think about what I had said and reconsidered his position. It will be interesting to see what comes of his ideas.
We also talked a little bit about the plan for after the competition in January. It will be a period of adjustment as I get used to being a student on top of balancing work and dance. I think Boss expects I will be doing less dance and less focused, but I am not quite sure I agree. I know there will be some changes I will have to make, but I also know that dance is one of my escapes and stress reliefs and that fitting school around dance will only be a benefit to school. That said, we will see how it goes.
We are going to talk more about competing in the new year after the competition in January, but I have made a decision to prepare, commit to and focus on a large competition overseas at the end of August. I am not going to give more details now, but a competition goal like this is something that I really need to give me something big to look forward to. Boss is very excited about the idea and I hope that other people will want to join us. I don’t know right now if I will do any other competitions before this one, but it is going to be the main goal in the new year. I am eager to work out the details some more.
I am having a difficult day again today with the reduction in medication. It’s been a very rough day and I have been quite light headed and nauseous. I did go to the gym and that made me feel a little bit better, and I am going to try to practice tonight (although it remains to be seen if I will be able to as the world keeps spinning a little unexpectedly). I talked to the pharmacist yesterday and all I can do is keep fighting my way through these symptoms until I adjust or go back to my previous dose. If anything, the side effects and difficulties I am experiencing now cement my determination to get this drug completely out of my system. It’s just a very difficult battle and my body still hasn’t adjusted to the reduction (which according to the pharmacist is not surprising and it might take a week).
I am so torn about this. On the one hand, I know I should give my body and mind a break–it is trying very hard to adjust to being without a chemical it became accustomed to having. On the other, I need to push my way through it to maintain my mental and emotional health. I am making some concessions for the adjustment, but I am trying not to cut back too much on my activity–as I said it does seem to help some even though it is difficult. I already missed one lesson and practice this week due to this, I don’t want to miss more. At least every other day I feel ‘normal’.
I will have a competitive practice this weekend and I hope it will be productive.