1 year since my last chemo treatment.
Seems almost impossible at this point looking back. All I remember was feeling bad that I felt so sick and weak at the time I didn’t have the energy to celebrate then.
So much has happened in the last year and I have come so far. I have had radiation, shingles, 3 surgeries, returned to work, returned to strength training, returned to running and returned to structured dance training. I have hair now!
There were some goals I reached (such as performing, regular workouts, structured eating), and some that are still works in progress (still have the extra 30lbs hanging around from chemo, even though I am smaller!).
I wonder if July 17th will be a day that will stick in my head for a long time yet. It is almost a milestone, where I can look back over the last year and see the progress I have done.
Even a year later, I still suffer from side effects from the treatments. I am still showing signs of premature menopause and it is getting less likely that will ever reverse. I am still struggling with dry skin, something I never had before chemo. My brain still gets very foggy and I have a hard time processing things verbally. I often forget words in the middle of a sentence.
But I am here and in general doing well. Last week was a challenge as I got a stomach virus which messed up the levels of HT in my system and caused side effects from that to act up. I think I slept more than 12 hours 5 out of the last 7 days, but have had to take full doses of my insomnia meds to do so.
That’s the trickiest thing I am encountering right now–how to tell what is side effects, what is an actual illness and what is just general fatigue? I am looking forward at the next two weeks and taking them to be the real adjustment period to working 6 hour days.
I also see a physio therapist next week for my knees–hopefully that will help and ‘reduce activity’ won’t be the first thing on the menu.
I missed practice and my lesson at the end of last week, but made it up on Friday (the lesson anyway). It was a great lesson–Boss and I were working through the first smooth routine designed for us by the judge I mentioned. Such a fun routine!
I will post more about that next week. Boss also told me he is ready to discuss goals now that he knows where I am physically so I am looking forward to that.
I am going to leave you with something I haven’t done, and likely won’t again–before, during and after photos. So here you–this is me 1 week before chemo, about halfway through, and me today.
Keep smiling and dancing!