New work to be done!
Mainly, recovering from the past year. As much as I would like to think that breast cancer is behind me (and the cancer part definitely is!), there are a lot of lingering side effects from treatment that will take close to a year to work out.
I am hoping that’s an over-estimation, but I am trying to manage my expectations.
First order of business is to continue healing from this surgery. I am down to only one spot being bandaged and cleaned daily, but still have a few other spots that are ‘almost’ there. I still have to wear the elastic binder around my waist, but even the nurse today commented that he wasn’t sure what help it was doing. I have to wear it at least until I see the surgeon again on the 14th.
Second is getting through the first 3 months of hormone therapy. After less than a week of taking it, I can tell it’s affecting me. I am emotionally all over the place and the hot flashes are bad–especially at night. I have to give it 3 months for my body to adjust and then go from there. I am hoping my body adjusts sooner.
Third, I hope, will be a slow return to work. I see my family doctor on the 7th and she should have a better idea then when I can start back. With it will hopefully come a referral to physio and/or a rehabilitative specialist. Prior to getting sick I did regular weight and strengthening training to supplement dance and I am really eager to get back to it. It’s especially important as I have an older permanent back injury that needs to supported through my core (hence another reason why dance is so important!). I have missed work and look forward to getting back to it.
Finally, will be my return to dance. I don’t know when it will be yet as it really depends on my healing. I still have a gaping ‘hole’ that is about 1 1/2″ that is healthy, but doing very little healing. Unfortunately, it is in a place that could easily be pulled and stretched doing dance, and until it is closed up, I don’t see me being allowed to go back to full dance.
The surgeon is the boss on when that will happen. He has allowed me to do small stability exercises so far, and I am hopeful at my next appointment he will allow me to do more with my lower body and perhaps return to my latin ‘rocks’ as long as my upper body isn’t too involved. We will see how it goes.
I have been giving a lot of thought to how I want to return to dance, taking into account how I am feeling. I haven’t discussed it with Boss, but I think once I get a ‘go ahead’ in January I am going to take the time to sort and figure things out for myself first. Then I will return to lessons with him in February. I need to give myself time to figure out all the new sensations going on with my body right now, especially through my abdomen. I also need to get more used to my lower centre of gravity (I feel about 6 inches shorter, even though I am not!), and see where my balance is at. I think because my centre is lower I am actually a little more grounded–but we will see.
2 weeks to go before I see the surgeon again and it seems like forever.
In the meantime, I have put my fitbit on again, and now that my mom is gone stocked the fridge with my ‘singles’ food fare. I am looking at this 2 weeks as a chance to get a ‘jump’ on my diet before I can go back to regular activity. I am doing my ballet exercises daily and my arm endurance every other day (right now, 2 mins per hold is a challenge–and I used to do 3 mins each no problem!).
Let the rebuilding begin.