I am finished chemo!
It feels very strange to say that. I feel like I am waiting for a phone call to tell me they made a mistake somehow and surprise!…here is 6 more months of torture.
It is a little like torture and I had to willingly do it. I can understand how some chemo patients feel like they have PTSD after treatment. I didn’t even have one of the main pain causing protocols and I dread the thought of ever having to walk into the chemo ward again and sit in that chair.
But hopefully, I will never need to.
I have at least 3 weeks ahead of me with nothing to do but recover from my last treatment, prepare for radiation and dance. With any luck, my Port-o-Cath (a silicone disc inserted in my chest for receiving chemo) will also be removed during that time (it’s a day surgery). I hope to hear about the next steps soon, because I think it makes me a little anxious to not have any appointments until I see my medical oncologist for follow-up in August.
Today, for the first time I went out in public with no hat, cap, or scarf. That felt great! It seemed strange to feel wind in my hair (yes, I said hair!!), and to be outside without something compressing my head in some way.
People keep asking me how I am going to celebrate. I honestly have no idea. I think I am just getting used to the idea that I have no bloodwork this week, no chemo, nothing but rest.
And dance!! A great coach is coming on Tuesday and Thursday I have Smooth lesson #3!
Here’s hoping the side effects stay mild 🙂