Got through the performance tonight–only had one ‘rough’ spot!
There is a place where I do a spin into squat and my legs almost gave out on me, but I pulled it together and managed to stand and continue with the routine. A big part of me can’t believe I actually did it, and I was able to reach my goal of posting something tangible for my family who are far away to see I am really doing ok.
I did do a statement in the end, and several people came up to me after to thank me for sharing this piece of my journey. In the end, this is what I said:
“As some of you know, in October 2014, I found a lump in my breast that turned out to be not ‘just a cyst’ but one of several breast cancer tumours. In January 2015, I began chemotherapy and I have now completed 13 of 16 treatments—all while continuing to dance. Tonight is for all those who have survived any form of cancer and for all those still fighting their fight. I would be remiss if I didn’t take a moment to thank and acknowledge ‘Boss’—whose patience, instruction and support have really made it possible for me to keep dancing. It is not easy teaching a student to dance who has cancer, especially a pro/am student, and that deserves special recognition. I also want to take a moment to thank you—the dancers here—because your support has helped to keep me dancing as well, and I know I wouldn’t be doing so well or be so positive if I couldn’t. So thank you very much, and I hope you are enjoying yourself tonight. This is to show that with faith, patience and determination, it really is possible to do anything you put your mind to.”
When I got home, I discovered one of the people who watched also recorded the performance and shared on facebook dedicating it to those fighting cancer. I didn’t expect that at all, and am a little wowed that what I did had such an impact.
I am now ready to finish chemo and move on to the next phase of treatment–I have proven to myself I CAN do what I put my mind to.