Just a quick post tonight because it’s been a hard day side effect-wise and I really need some sleep before my usual Thursday appointments tomorrow morning.
My open Cha Cha routine now has a full ending (although, it actually ends with Hustle), so hopefully I will be feeling better tomorrow night and we can just run through the whole routine over and over. I am glad to have an ending but really wish I had been able to better incorporate it. My mind shut down almost immediately into my lesson, which meant I was working on auto-pilot most of the time, and kept missing things I normally wouldn’t have any issue with–like timing. Everything seemed to be working in slow motion for me.
I have an appointment with a oncology nurse-practitioner tomorrow which I imagine will be followed by a phone conversation with my medical oncologist. As much as I am generally positive, I think I may have reached the breaking point for side effects for me. This week has been particularly hard and this is the second time I have reached what they deem ‘intolerable’. The first time they reduced my dose by 10%. This time I am not sure if I am willing to even continue. The side effects are bad enough that right now I just want to sleep until July 10th–not because I am tired (which I really really am), but because at least when I am sleeping I don’t have to feel any side effects.
It’s been a long 21 weeks.